Ok, seriously.  If you want to do something, do it.  Stop letting other people’s opinions and agendas cloud up your choices and emotions.  You know your body, your mind, your spirit.  It isn’t wrong to discuss with others, to process.  However, when you feel a slight resistance as you gush on and on about the fabulous plans you are making for yourself, stop and think.  Is the receiver of your words uncomfortable seeing you change and evolve?  Will your upward movement make them feel left behind? Is their comfort being jeopardized by your progression? 

In the end, you need to feel happiness… and those who are ultimately attuned to you know this and will honor it.

Go out in the world and shine the light that has always been inside of you.

Don’t wait.

xo.

“A feeling…” A sixth sense…” A knowing…”  Whatever you call it, I think from time to time, we all experience deja vu phenomenons… an event happens and it’s like we had a premonition about it.  Or a nudge from the universe is felt, and we are left with decisions about what to do next.

I try to be aware of these feelings.  Lately, Jerry and I have been pondering something.  Not the most pleasant of ideas, but… it is interesting.  On the day you die, that morning… do you have a feeling?

I read an article yesterday that mentioned a rescue worker who came upon a car accident.  Inside the vehicle he found a bride, still in her wedding dress… and no longer alive.  Did she know? Did she have an “off” feeling about that day?  Did she stop a moment before getting into the car? 

I suppose if you are experiencing an illness it may be a bit different… but what if it comes out of the blue? 

I have heard stories from loved ones of people who have passed, how they seemed to be “finishing things” or how they made foreboding comments.  Hell, even Whitney Houston was quoted by others as saying that she was “…going to see Jesus soon.”  The ex-Weezer bassist mentioned something about dying through his Twitter account last year…http://blog.zap2it.com/pop2it/2011/10/ex-weezer-bassist-mikey-welsh-predicts-own-death-on-twitter-memorial-set-for-saturday.html

I suppose the whole feelings about your death thing is a dark subject… but I try to be aware of the signs the universe gives me.  Hopefully, the Grim Reaper won’t be whispering in my ear ANYTIME soon… but I think the whispering hints are important.

There were a series of signs leading up to me trying out for The Vagina Monologues.  I followed a straining, yet ultimately gratifying, path of signs to become Mrs. Harris.

That leads me to wonder… is it all destined?  Is it all set out for us already?  I don’t know if I believe that… I think we have choices and there are a series of different ways it can all go.  I suppose I have been watching too much of the show Fringe (FOX, please don’t cancel it!) which discusses alternate universes and the other versions of ourselves that are created from different choices.  

I just want to be the best version of myself that I can be.  I want to take the hints from the universe and develop into the kind of human being that causes a positive chain of events in myself, in others, and in the world. So, even on the morning I wake up with a sense of finality, I know I made the most of my journey.

xo.