Monthly Archives: July 2012

Jul29

Greet Your Fears.

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Personally, being a mental health therapist has helped me to delve through the layers of “gunk” that seem to accumulate from the time we are born.  Although the word gunk sounds icky, it isn’t all so terrible.  The hope is that the experiences we go through can “oil” the inner workings of what makes us a healthy person, providing us with lessons and empathy through first-hand knowledge.  When our soul and minds are “greased” in a positive way, our life moves smoothly.

However, inevitably the previously mentioned gunk can (and will) clog up the system.  Especially when we try and just push through it, ignoring the system(s) failure(s).

When we truly begin to look at the core issues and stop just treating the symptoms… something incredible happens.  For me, I feel lighter… more free… more at peace… really, like I imagine I felt when I was very young- before the traumas and trials of life had started to pile up.

After I push through one of these tough periods, I call it “leveling up”. :)

The word raw most accurately explains how I have felt the past few weeks.

Ironically, a quote I have had on my Facebook profile for at least the past 7 years hasn’t made as much sense as it has in recent days…

“Some people are afraid of what they might find if they try to analyze themselves too much, but you have to crawl into your wounds to discover where your fears are. Once the bleeding starts, the cleansing can begin.”- Tori Amos

Now, I am healing… looking around at this new “level” I have found myself on after a time when my mind and body reached depths that I am so thankful to have seen and confronted, but even more thankful to have returned from.

This past week I have regrouped and found, again, what always brought me energy before some of the gunk got so heavy… planning trips, reconnecting with friends, refocusing on wellness, living in the moment…

… and just having some FUN that doesn’t need analyzing or processing-

For example, an awesome trip to Goodwill yesterday that resulted in some treasure hunting (and treasure discovering)… and a photo-shoot (of course!)

Clean out your wounds- it will hurt and it will be terrifying… but it will also bring you peace.

xo.

Jul15

Passive Living.

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When I was very young I had strong opinions.  I made what I wanted known and I reacted without using much of a filter.

 

Around 1994-ish, when I was in the 6th grade, I started to see the benefit of “going with the flow”.  I even remember writing in my diary about how, in a world of fluctuating friendships, I was finding a happy social balance by, essentially, not making too much fuss.

 

Recently I have discovered that the balance I once found in being “laid-back” had infiltrated my wellness to an extent that I am almost embarrassed to admit.

 

Saying yes to foods I loooveeeeeee but, sadly, do not have any benefit to my sensitive gut is an awareness that I am determined to continue to acknowledge.

 

The chemical rewards of food are strong, and so are social aspects of the rituals of “meal times”, but I cannot let them seduce me continuously while my body suffers.

 

It’s never too late, to AGAIN, make a change. :)

xo.

Jul8

Learn your language.

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Acknowledge irritations, and spend time with all that soothes.

Revel in free will.

Find reassurance within.

Accept wise words, anger does have a place.

Choose to feel.

Breathe… no, really breathe.  Keep breathing.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

xo.

Jul4

Self Reminders: Volume 18

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* It’s never too late to make peace with your body, even if you just realized there was a war going on… (Quotes from an article I serendipitously stumbled upon)

“Illness comes for a reason, and in itself may actually be a positive opportunity to stop and examine one’s life, to get rid of an addiction or toxic lifestyle, or to turn from focus on strictly material matters to relationships, or to seek spiritual help or growth.”

“You are the one who knows your body best, and as you go through these observations try to expand your awareness beyond your own life to see also how these or other dis-harmonies are reflected in your own self, and the relationships with your friends, family, and even your community. As crazy as it sounds, ultimately it is your own choice to heal or not to heal as it is your own innate healing ability that is activated by your desire to get well.“

“It is possible that even a single period of intense stress lasting months such as occurs with a divorce, death of a family member, loss of job, a bankruptcy or other life-changing event may eventually lead to serious damage to the tissues which could trigger the development of a chronic disease such as cancer. Decades of habitual emotional distress can have a similar effect like living long term in an unhappy relationship or working for a boss who is awful to you.”

“The body itself has no power to generate illness; illness is merely the shadow thrown by the mind. A healthy mind will shadow forth a healthy body; an unhealthy mind will shadow forth an unhealthy body. Every new cell created in the body is either negative or a positive thought in form.”

It’s time for me to heal myself.  I feel like my real journey is just beginning… and I’m ready.

 

 

*  Make every day a day you would relive…

… beautiful afternoons with family…

 

 

* … Silly evenings with your best friend…

 

 

xo.