Personally, being a mental health therapist has helped me to delve through the layers of “gunk” that seem to accumulate from the time we are born. Although the word gunk sounds icky, it isn’t all so terrible. The hope is that the experiences we go through can “oil” the inner workings of what makes us a healthy person, providing us with lessons and empathy through first-hand knowledge. When our soul and minds are “greased” in a positive way, our life moves smoothly.
However, inevitably the previously mentioned gunk can (and will) clog up the system. Especially when we try and just push through it, ignoring the system(s) failure(s).
When we truly begin to look at the core issues and stop just treating the symptoms… something incredible happens. For me, I feel lighter… more free… more at peace… really, like I imagine I felt when I was very young- before the traumas and trials of life had started to pile up.
After I push through one of these tough periods, I call it “leveling up”.
The word raw most accurately explains how I have felt the past few weeks.
Ironically, a quote I have had on my Facebook profile for at least the past 7 years hasn’t made as much sense as it has in recent days…
“Some people are afraid of what they might find if they try to analyze themselves too much, but you have to crawl into your wounds to discover where your fears are. Once the bleeding starts, the cleansing can begin.”- Tori Amos
Now, I am healing… looking around at this new “level” I have found myself on after a time when my mind and body reached depths that I am so thankful to have seen and confronted, but even more thankful to have returned from.
This past week I have regrouped and found, again, what always brought me energy before some of the gunk got so heavy… planning trips, reconnecting with friends, refocusing on wellness, living in the moment…
… and just having some FUN that doesn’t need analyzing or processing-
For example, an awesome trip to Goodwill yesterday that resulted in some treasure hunting (and treasure discovering)… and a photo-shoot (of course!)
Clean out your wounds- it will hurt and it will be terrifying… but it will also bring you peace.