I have been trying to write since Saturday.  Saturday I had enough energy to find a new outfit for a wedding Jerry and I are going to next weekend…

I uploaded these pictures and put “finish blog post” on my to-do list for Sunday.

On Sunday my body screamed “REST!”… and everything else was pushed to the side.  It took all my energy to complete the task of painting my toe nails.

I have been on the IBD Remission diet for 21 days now.  It is recommended that while on the diet, a person should take 3 weeks to rest and heal.  I couldn’t help but laugh this off (how can anyone afford to set aside that much time!?) and I pushed through days 1-18.

Day 19 was my 1st day of total rest and today is my 3rd.

I don’t want to consider the past two days “sick days”, I want to consider them “wellness days.”  I don’t want to disappoint others, but if I don’t put myself first, who will?  I tell my clients constantly to “take care of yourself first!”

I need to keep my self-talk positive.  I need to keep myself balanced and rested.  I need to facilitate healing.

I have been on the forums regarding the diet. So many people have even more severe symptoms than I do or have ever had.  I can’t let my own demons and fears sabotage this- I have come too far and I want this too badly.

My dreams have been an emotional release… such lucid images representing so many worries that have been locked away.

This experience is amazing, but my perception is such an important factor… I need support from those in my life more than ever to keep my perception positive.

I need to be reassured, understood, and loved.

Thank you to everyone who has been there for me.

… and if you want to understand more about this diet, the forums have been very helpful, and I would welcome educated insight – I think it would help me feel less alone.  I am a strong woman, but after three days of much needed healing/rest, I am missing a connection with others.

xo.